Intermezzo (The bridge of grape)

-start of book 2- (The endless river of sadness)

Night has come..

Night will come..

Night has gone..

and night will not come..

There's only 6 more days to countdown before the kingdom of orange will fall..

after that, it will be a "good bye" word to the kingdom of orange.

I will give free tickets to the kingdom of blue.

There'll be no more orange...

Because I'm too dissapoointed with the people of orange..

I'll choose my own people to chat with.

No more strangers.

I hate my secrets..

I hate the people inside my secrets too..

The bridge of grape has been built.

But only few peeople can see it.

I have made the bridge invisible enough so it cannot be seen by the orange people.

Grape means purple.

It is between orange and blue.

Is it a another maze??

Just ask it yourself..

But one thing for sure..

For the people of orange..

You guyz sucks!! I hate you!!

I won't be online again.. Good bye..

I'll say it one more time in a different order.

Night has come

Night has gone

Night will come

Night will not come..

I'm just too dissapoointed to be true.

Where did your words go?

You said that I can trust you..

But you don't even want to hear my stories.

I'll be a nice guy... but that's just masking my sad face..

Page 1 (The Torn Page)

Pages are made of papers

Computers are made of metal and iron

Sea is made of water..

Paper is thin

Metal is hard

Sea is invisible..

My papers of love and hope had been torn by ink..

So be it..

Let the unseen know my journey..

the journey that has no point of view.

Travel through the sea with a paper heart and metal hands.

What's wrong with that black looking eye?

Are you theone who made my heart into a paper?

I don't think so...

My heart was turned into a paper since a long time ago.

And its because of my own personality.

I hate my personality so damn much..

How could fate be so cruel??

I have turned my heart..

I have torn the paper so it cannot be written again..

Rain, please come forth to me..

Pour down your every single raindrops unto me..

I wanna be free...

Free from this cruel land.

I wanna breakout free...

Oh wind, let me fly with you...

Please release my agony...

The smooth clouds have spoken..

"when will you come to be one with me??"

I answered silently..

"I Don't know it myself either..."

The silly rain smile flashed upon me.

I'm feeling bette...

Thx for being my friend..

Page 2 (My Own Little Dirty Secret)

Now I know the root of my problems.

My trueself is the cause.

I'm denying myself so damn badly just to make sure that no one knows about me.

Dear GOD..

I don't wanna be like this..

How could this happen to me??

Everybody has their own little dirty secret.

Do you have any?

Do you wanna share it to someone?

My secret room is beginning to shade slowly as my heart pace was turning.

I love keeping secrets

I have so many secrets

My secrets,

My brother's secrets,

My friend's secrets,

My clan's secrets..

I enjoy my introvert side

Coz I can silently whsper my problems to the sky.

The hills slap me to the ground.

The sky fell on me so I can't get up again..

I know that I'm not a perfect human.

that has no sins at all..

But I know that everybody's leaving me one by one

You know why??

I bet you don't know it.

But anyway, I'll tell you today..

They're leaving me...
















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Page 3 (Fate "continued from chapter 7 of the unfold memories")

I was chatting with my friends at one night.

But my friends didn't answer my messages..

I was texting my friends at one night.

But they didn't answer my sms either..

I met my friends at one day...

But they were showing their hypocrite face to me at that day.

This is the proof that everybody that has known me will leave me..

I don't wan this to happen again..

F*CK IT!!!

I hate myself so damnly as even more than someone that hates his worst enemy

Eventhough the city is crowd of people,

The class is full of students..

I still feel lonely somehow coz I can't express myself freely.

Humans eat to live.

Machines must be stayed plugged to keep alive.

Plants need water and earth to live.

But me??

I don't nee food, water, electricity, warm house or anything else anymore as long as I have someone that don't leave me and care about me after that person knows about my trueself..

As the mirror reflects my body, I'm starting to think slowly...

"How if the whole universe knows me?"
"What will happen if there's someoe who spreads my secrets?"
"If my bestfriends find out about me, I can't live any longer."

My friend stopped using the service.
-That's the reason why I had stopped using th service as well..

It is hard to believe on someone that we haven't really know that peerson fo sure.

please..

I really mean it for sure..

PLEASE.....!!!!!

help me out from this misery..

I don't wanna fall any further.

I don't know whom to ask again.

I really don't have anyone.

Page 4 (Wonderland)

I am wondering about a land

A land full of hopoe,

full of happiness,

nosadness will conquer you,

no fear may fall upon you..

Does that kind of land exist??

Of course it exist!!

But there's no single land like that in this world

Fire..

Water..

Wind..

Earth..

They're the basic elements in this planet.

Light..

Darkness..

Holy..

Evil..

They're the secondary elements in this planet..

Bad,

Kindness,

They're the special elements in this planet..

Full of angels, That's how I describe this planet.

I'm in a total chaos..

such a word can't describe the world that I'm living in now..

There'll be no words can easily change my chaotic heart.

There's only one way to put an end to this misery..

That is to drive me out from this place and show me a bright place.

A place where everything looks good enough for me.

Where every single person don't leave me alone just becase they know me..

A new land of glory and virtuosity..

A can't change myself..

So I would like to ask the people that had left me to change their heart against me.

I'm not as bad as you guyz think!!

Sorry if I have made many mistakes that I don't realizeit myself!

Page 5 (Conciousness)

Conciousness...

That's all that I have to stay alive until today.

When will this agony stop?

The thiefs had taken the passport of the yellowmoon river..

I think the time has almost come for me to stop my disguise.

Time.. Please tell me when you are going to pick me up.

so I can easily pack my belongings before I go.

Oh moon... please shine upon me.

Shine for me brighter, brighter, and even brighter than the sun.

So I would not lose my conciousness..

I want to stay awake in this tiny litte world.

The small box of my heart had been opoened and I don't know how to fill its emptyness..

Rain doesn't have the ability to stop my sadness

Long time ago, kiss the rain and rain could washed up my sadness,

but now I can't stopo it again because it's getting worse..

My sickness is not a normal one..

My heart has been paralyzed since five years ago.

It's not easy to move freely

I can barely breath nowadays..

My paralyzed heart is getting worse.

Why I don't have any bestfriend or lover?

Coz my paralyzed heart had paralyzed my feelings too..

I can't have the feelings of love, caring, friendship, and loyalty.

I can't live any longer in this pain.

No body can cure me coz I have tried all medicines as well.

I think, only miracle can cure the broken heart of me.

I lay my back at the grass of the open wide grass land.

I considered myself concious..

I'm still here..

I haven't fainted yet..

I'm still awake..

Aware of the situations around me.

So long friends..

Prosperous amour..

Page 6 (The Blue Blood)

Blue waves washed my journey..

White wind slapped my min slowly but sure.

and the snow covered my personality

I don't wanna get close to my friends

coz in the end, I will only hurt myself and my friends.

I can't bear this pain much further

I'm writing too many prophecies..

My prophecies are beginning to come true one by one..

The blue flame is the symbol of the mystic families.

So do the blue blood.

I'm so jealous with my friends.

Coz they can have bestfriends, love, and everything else.

When can I cure my heart?

How to do it??

I'm entering the cave of doubtness right now.

Eyes show everything..

You don't need to say million words to me.

Just see my eyes focusly for 3 seconds and I'll know everything about you

and what you're going to say

I'm too tired to be sad

Too tired to shed tears

I can't shed tears anymore..

Coz my eyes are too tired.

Boys and Gurlz, They can't be trusted.

Men and Women, they are not wise enough to hear my stories.

Right now, I can only stay alive and pretend that I have a normal life.

And I'm doing that while I'm making my heart more paralyze.

Please stop the reflecting mirrors around me..

They pretend that they know about my problems

But they just don't know about me.

I hate myself for telling the truth.

Just leave me alone people!

You don't care about what I want.

Good bye...